Lost...

Two words best describe my first day of work: lost and overwhelmed. The first 2 days were orientation days to familiarize ourselves with the new environment, the system, and the staff. I didn’t realize this hospital is very much smaller than the hospital where I did my training at. Good thing with smaller/rural hospitals are: lots of opportunities to do various procedures as a first year postgrad and the pay is slightly higher for similar position :P

Forgive and forget

Be Forgiving
When the Prophet Mohammad (SAW) asked his companions, “Do you wish that Allah should forgive you?” they said, “Of course O Prophet of Allah.” He responded:

Be Willing to Forget
Things that happened in the past must be left there and not be used as fresh ammunition in new situations.

Be Aware of Feelings
Prophet Mohammad (SAW) stated that Allah forgives all sins if we repent but not those we have committed against others, i.e. hurt their feelings, unless the person we have hurt forgives first

-copy and paste from islamonline.com-

Two more days...

Two more days before i start work...
Quite nervous... I'm not sure which one scares me the most and in what order...
New environment, new people, new responsibilities...
I don't think i'm ready to face arrest situations....
I'm scared laaaa

Spherical boulders

These spherical boulders are called Moeraki boulders. I went to see these boulders with some friends on our way back to Dunedin from Oamaru last year. Each of these boulders was formed similar to the way a pearl is formed around a particle in an oyster. Amazing isn't it? Another evidence of Allah's greatness as a Creator. And who are we to question Allah's ruling?

Procrastination is a serious illness

When it comes to doing things, how many of us would complete the chores on the dot? And how many would brush it off and say ''Yeah, I'll do it later, still have time''? Procrastination is definitely a serious illness. Throughout the years, i've learnt so many things the hard way. I must admit a majority of the time it was because i procrastinated. I left things to the last minute... Sometimes things that didn't appear to be important or urgent, i would simply stack it away thinking that i'd come back to it at a later time. Yeah, learning things the 'hard way' can be beneficial because it'll stick to the mind forever. We learn how to organise things urgently!! Ain't that good?? If we have a terrible time completing something... of course we'll take note of it so that the same mistake will not be repeated next time. However it would save sooooo much time and energy if we do things on time. It would also save us the stress!!! The work we do will be more organised, we don't panic, we don't tend to leave out things, everything will be done on time... And i'm sure everyone knows this fact: relaxing after a job's done is way more satisfying than taking our time and worrying about it all the way ;)

Why am i talking about this?
3 months ago when i received a letter saying i have been offerred a year's contract with one of the hospitals here, along came with it multiple forms that need to be filled in. There was one form regarding income tax and IRD numbers etc etc (I still don't understand how it works but it's regarding income tax). I did ask my future employer about that form but he said if i don't know how to fill in that form, just bring it on the first day of work and we'll fill it in together. Being an ignorant being like myself, plus my procrastinating habit, i just put the form away and said to myself "okay, that's to be sorted out later." I never saw that form again until a few days ago...
What happened a few days ago?? A few days ago my friend asked me if i have an IRD number already... and erkkk!!! What's an IRD number again???? She said i need to have an IRD number before the gov't can tax my income. She simply put it as "No IRD number, no salary, no money". That's more like it... simple and easy to understand ;) I started to panic. An application for IRD number would usually take 2 weeks (10 days the minimum). I have been in NZ for 6 years... 6 years!!!! I'm sure everyone agrees that i have ample time to apply for an IRD number. But there i was, 5 days before starting work... just knew about IRD number. To cut long story short, I made an urgent application, made some phone calls, faxed a few letters...and walaa... i got my IRD number in less than 24 hours!!! Hehehe.... Yeah I've learnt how to make an urgent application, so i know what to do when faced with similar situation next time... but it would have saved me lots of time, energy and stress if i have done it earlier. So dear readers... Please don't make procrastination our culture.

Clear blue sky

Another beautiful view of NZ countryside. Taken by me when i was doing my rural GP attachment. When mata and tumpuan ke arah urusan dunia, cubalah once in a while dongak ke langit....look at the beautiful clear blue sky... pujilah ciptaan Allah...Subhanallah... mesti hati tenang!!

Homesick today

Homesick today... Rindu towards babah and mama di Brunei.
It all started when I read this e-novel about a daughter who went to Ireland to study Medicine. She's the favourite among her 3 siblings to her daddy. One day her daddy told her she's promised to a man chosen by him. The girl however had given her heart to another guy so she disagreed strongly to her daddy's decision. She went back to Ireland to finish her study. She rarely spoke to her dad even though deep down she missed him terribly. Every time when she called home, she always refused to talk to him. When she finished her study and went home, she discovered that her daddy had passed away. He wrote her a letter before he died saying that he only wanted the best for her since she's his dearest daughter. Time went by...and indeed the man chosen by her daddy was the right one for her... She wasted her time arguing with her dad, not talking to him when he was alive trying to prove her point that she disagreed with his decision....... only to find out later that his dad's choice was the best.

What has this story got anything to do with me??? Nothing!! ;)
But it makes me realise that pengorbanan ayah and ibu jarang kita fikirkan... We only think about our kesusahan but we rarely think about kesusahan/kepayahan ayah and ibu kita dalam mendidik and membesarkan kita. They want the best for us but sometimes kita salah erti kan hasrat diorang. Apalah sangat pengorbanan kita berbanding dengan pengorbanan babah and mama kita yang melahirkan, membesarkan, memberi pelajaran and kebahagiaan selama ni.
Yeah maybe their decisions, their choices aren't necessarily the best for us... but tolaklah dengan cara baik, jangan berkasar, and if they insist, apa salahnya kita cuba menyenangkan hati mereka... But having said this, i do realise anything yang berkenaan dengan hati and perasaan memang among the toughest issues of adult life... hmmm

Opening a new chapter...

It might be difficult to summarize the last 6 years of my life in one sentence...but here goes: In summary, i have been here in NZ for the past 6 years studying to become a doctor.

Now...

I've finished my study, just awaiting for my graduation in 2 weeks time!! Babah and mama are coming... seronoknyeeee.... ;) But I'm a bit anxious, this coming Monday i'll be starting work. I have to move to a new town, meet new people, work in a hospital i've never laid eyes on... Might sound exciting to the adventurous souls out there but quite scary for me... I'm in the process of leaving Dunedin, this amazing little city which has left millions of memories. Berat rasa hati untuk tinggalkan this place, this place is like a second home for me after Brunei...
Masa ni sedang packing barang2... penat sungguh!!! Berat sungguh the barang2... rasa kan patah tulang belakang ni (*exaggerating mode ON hehe)... Emosi pun kurang stabil lately ni....
I realise that i should be happy coz i've achieved my ambition, sudah tunaikan hasrat di hati and harapan babah and mama to see me berjaya... Sepatutnya lebih bersemangat to work coz from now on i'll be able to rasa rezeki Allah hasil titik peluh sendiri...

Allahu Akbar

Sometimes we become too engrossed in our never ending work, assignments, financial problems, and other worldly problems that we forget to look around. Keindahan ciptaan Allah yang boleh menenangkan hati yang runsing, jiwa yang stressed gagal dimanfaatkan oleh kita. I've been here in NZ for 6 years and only this year i had the chance to see this amazing sight. This is Central Otago in the middle of winter.

Welcome

Assalamualaikum wbt


Welcome dear readers to 'a snapshot of my life'! I've never blogged before... What drives me to start blogging?? I don't have an answer to that. For the past few years i've enjoyed reading other people's blogs. I view blogging as a way of providing others with a snapshot of the blogger's life. Their opinions, their views, the way they live... their tears and laughters... Some just blog for the fun of it ;) Each and everyone of us is different. By sharing we can learn from each other... I've also come across blogs that share knowledge about Ad-Din... Stories that can make us think about the reason of our existence... Not to mention stories that are so funny that it cheers up our day...
Enjoy reading.... a snapshot of my life!!